Author: charles

Can I tell you something very personal? I’ve been angry with God. Furious in fact. It’s late, and I didn’t intend for this post to be long but I’m keeping my promise to show-up for us. I believe in God with certainty. And I think that’s what makes me angry sometime. When I look at… Read more

I must confess it’s been a minute. That means a long time. I promise you that I while I haven’t been here I have been working on myself. But I apologize to you. While I write this post to strengthen my core – so to speak – I also write this for you. My apologies… Read more

Yup. Me too. Bit of a rushed day today. What about you? I’m hoping you feel good about getting through the night last night and getting through the night again tonight. Did you make a decision on what I asked you about last night? The vow to be there for yourself and fight to live?… Read more

I just had a visit with my Primary Care Physician who I haven’t seen in the last two years. He asked me to catch him up on what’s been going on. He looked at me in disbelief. Then I found myself hesitating to say these words: “I’ve decided to fight for life”. I hesitated because… Read more

Please, don’t finish that sentence. Maybe I’m wrong in my thinking and need correction. Maybe this is a lack of growth in my gray area. Or, maybe it just depends on who’s saying it. The moment I hear someone begin their sentence with: “I’m the type of person that…” In my experience it’s usually someone… Read more

I think it was less than 18 hours ago. In the last post I was telling you how I had a great time with friends. That feeling of guiltless good times has worn down. I don’t want to bring you down with me. But this is the reality we have to fight through sometimes. I… Read more

No, I did not. I didn’t forget about you and I didn’t forget about myself. I’m just late to post. Because I was out having a good time. Invited to the home of a few friends for a total of 6 of us. Not a large crowd which is just what I need. As I… Read more

I deleted something in the title. The word “should.” When you take steps to work on your mental health you learn that, “should” statements are detrimental to your well-being. It’s perceived as the root to negative thought processes. It derails you from acceptance. But should statements are not what I intended to talk to you… Read more

The way suicidality manifests itself in me is that everyone else’s life is worth more than my own. I will fight a good fight for you. But I’ll think about defending myself. I’ll want more for you than I will for myself. I remember saying some things that I was later told were hurtful to… Read more

Not talking about a picture here. And I don’t mean to sound harsh or abrasive, brash or cold or insensitive. But I say it with passion – re-frame it! I’m talking about the things you used to love before your heart was broken. Reclaim it. It belongs to you. All those love songs and records… Read more