Author: charles

I am about to make what may be a controversial statement. I don’t believe in divorce. I do believe that if the husband or wife violate the marriage vow by being unfaithful in the marriage that is just cause for the innocent mate – the mate who was not unfaithful – to decide if they… Read more

I showed up. let me try that again. I showed up! In my post yesterday I said something I don’t normally say. I said: “until tomorrow.” Usually I say something to the effect of: “Until next time.” It is comfortable to be non-committal. For me and others like me that battle with suicidallity. That’s interesting.… Read more

Forgive me. This is how my brain’s been operating. In fact I’m staring at my keyboard and I’m thinking of a million different sentences to start the next and before I can complete that sentence in my head a new one begins. Hi. I’m back. I got distracted. Please don’t think that these distractions are… Read more

I’m back home after an 11 hour drive and going through emails. One being from my school. Yep, I’m back in school and they reminded be it’s been a week since my last assignment. It reminded me that you are my priority. It’s late so I’ll keep it brief and expound on it as time… Read more

When you suffer from black and white thinking or all or nothing thinking in between the contrast where there should be gray is, instead, doubt. Doubt is colorless but is also the reason we banished gray from our life scale. Where did we learn to let doubt have control? My first thought is that game… Read more

My heart aches. I refuse to admit that it doesn’t because it only prolongs the pain. Musical reference. There will be many to come. This post began because of a song that began playing on my playlist. The artist is Morgan James and the song: “You Thought Not”. Then I played the song on repeat.… Read more

You know the feeling. It’s anger. It’s the heaviness that sits on your chest when you’ve been disrespected and you want to react. You might even want a good hands-on fight. Even if you lose, you are willing to take the risk because of the satisfaction you think you’ll have from exerting the energy produced… Read more

Also known as all or nothing. It is a way of thinking that can create peace for the people around you but it’s also a way of thinking that can land you in a mental institution. Don’t be offended. I can testify to that truth personally. For those of you who know me from Linkedin… Read more

You may not consider yourself a parent, much like myself. I have no children. I did not procreate. But the thought that is in my head tonight is that I may need to demolish that thought. By all accounts I will be treated like a man. If I were ever to commit a crime, I… Read more

Not long ago I wrote my letter saying goodbye to those who I knew loved me. It was my decision that I no longer wanted to exist in the world. It wasn’t the first time I had made that choice. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to experience joy and happiness. I wanted to. But… Read more