You know the feeling. It’s anger. It’s the heaviness that sits on your chest when you’ve been disrespected and you want to react. You might even want a good hands-on fight. Even if you lose, you are willing to take the risk because of the satisfaction you think you’ll have from exerting the energy produced by your anger. You may even be taunted and invited to express that anger to the one or few who hurt you. For most of us the words will be the first action of execution aimed directly toward the heart of the wrongdoer. Then the words escalate then we find ourselves being matched in the power of the pain in our words. Then our brain begins searching and scanning and racing for the next thing we can do to prove ourselves more powerful without having to be confined to a jail cell. We want to display what happens when we are disrespected. We also want to show why we should have been respected to begin with. We demand better treatment.
Many of us have learned the hard way that reacting in anger is not the best way to get what we want which is usually simply to be respected and appreciated. Maybe it’s me but I find that the most physically attractive people are ugly when they’re angry. I’ll rephrase that. The most physically attractive people are ugly when they act out in anger. To be angry is to be human. To act on our anger is bestial. I firmly believe that acting out in our anger is a clear indicator of the condition of our mental health. Please don’t say that to someone when you see them acting out in anger. We all have to come to realize these things in our own time. Unfortunately, we will inevitably be at the other end of somebody’s display of anger. Yes – even we – must accept that we have been the reason why someone else has felt disrespected. We’ve been hurt and we have been the cause of hurt. We have been victims and we have made victims. Own it and accept it now. Just as there is gravity there is that ugly truth.
I starting typing this because I was ruminating on things from my past. Every morning in my group for mental health we would go around the room and we would have to rate on a scale from 1 to 10 many different factors but one of them was rumination. Rumination can be compared to a cow chewing cud. Except, a cow chewing cud is evidence it’s healthy. Rumination in the hospital had a negative connotation because the thoughts associated with ruminating were always negative and associated with failure. So right now I would rate my rumination as a 7, that’s high and not good but it’s because I feel like a failure in some things I could have done but didn’t do. I’m also thinking about upsetting things as I type this.
I also started writing this because that title has been in my head for a while. Many times I think of a title before I think about what I want a post to be about. That’s just part of my process. But In this post I wanted to let you know that while I will be angry at any given moment it is not an excuse to lower my standards and start cursing. I promise to maintain a level of integrity that includes no cursing because you deserve that level of respect. You really do. I hope you will show respect in the same way for the rest of the community that reads this and for me. We’ll call it mutual respect.
So I’ve rambled. But please, when you are angry remember you are so much more beautiful when you don’t act on it. You might be physically shaking but don’t act on it. You might be so angry you want to cry – so cry but don’t act on it. Be angry! Just don’t let anyone see you act on it. Let your silence accentuate your beauty and if you really want to go above and beyond. Do something kind for the one or few that hurt you. Because that’s who you are. You are a beautiful human-being. Being petty is thinking small. Here, we level the old beliefs and tear down the old behaviors to build something better and more beautiful. We are the few that do the hard work because it matters to us.
Can’t believe I’m writing this mid day. Maybe I’ll publish two posts today. Don’t put that on the record. Any way, its time for you to go your way radiantly. Until next time, may you have peace and show yourself grace.