I have always hated a spotlight of attention. It puts me in a state of panic. I dumb myself down. After a moment being spotlighted I always find a million reasons to be disappointed with myself. Most of the time it’s not that I was even the center of attention. It just felt like I was. Behind the monitor is comfortable place for me. So why not journal? Why do you need to blog? I hope that this can eventually become a way for me to make a living. I spent 20 plus years working in healthcare. The beginning years were fun. Then Healthcare became about business and less about care. I was brokenhearted. I was violated, sexually harassed and I was ignored retaliated against and told I was worthless and valueless. I never wanted that spotlight. The state of Demolition isn’t about calling people or places out. That’s not why I’m bringing this up. I bring this up because I’m reminding myself why I’m writing this. To be as transparent with myself and with you as possible this is how I intend on making my money. But also to put to bed the words that were left lingering in my ear – that I am worth-less and valueless – from the big machine known as healthcare .
I know I’m not the only one that was taught those untruths. Know that they are the furthest thing from the truth about you or I. They are lies. There is no truth in those long held beliefs we were sold. If you can believe that even just a little bit then piece by piece we can dismantle that subconscious barrier that holds us back. What are the untruths you were told that you believed were true?
You don’t have to be famous to be a Superstar. Until we meet again may you have rest and peace.